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62: The Worst of What Law School Has To Offer
Easily the vilest subterranean law school creature. How I wanted to shove my degree up your ass when I completed it. Instead, I smiled sweetly, happy to annoy you with my continued existence.

61: Unforgotten Luke
You were far from home. We talked of shrapnel and academics. You showed me your secret scars and whispered your fear that I was the kind of girl that could make you stay.

60: A Sister
I don’t think that I have ever met anyone who makes me feel quite as awkwardly uncomfortable as you do. I don’t understand you and I really want to give up trying to.

59: Her Best Friend
Her loyal friend for over 50 years. You so pissed me off at her funeral with your whispered talk of secrets and your small minded gossip. I wont ever speak to you again.

58: The Friend Who Wanted More
Wise, funny, incredibly loyal, and unexpectedly there for me to lean on. I wish I had wanted you the way that you did me. I missed you after I figured it all out.

57: A Primary School Teacher
You gave me a handwritten note telling me to always believe in myself. Twenty years, five houses, two states, and one continent later I still carry that note - but rarely achieve it’s directive.

56: The I Want To Live Like Common People Pretentious Git
You asked me what it was like to be poor with this huge inquisitive grin on your face. You told me you wanted to experience having your electricity cut off. You stupid prick.

55: The Great Uncle
She so wanted to see you one last time before she died. I met you recently and, honestly, I am almost glad that she never did. I wish you would tell the truth.

54: The One That Wasn’t The One
You are sex and candy. All gentle touches and slick liquid desire. You are not mine to want. But want is mine for you. Your response was fast. I liked that. Too much.

53: The First Valentine
My friend liked you, you liked me. Our little trio taught me the rules of the ‘I liked him first’ game.  I’m pretty sure you were the easiest first of the forbidden men.

52: A Childhood Friend
Amongst other things, you slept with a carving knife under your pillow because you were scared of burglars. I’ve never known anyone more full of fear. I’m sorry your parents refused to notice.

51: The No Tongue Kisser
I knew we were doomed when you revealed your general refusal to kiss with tongue. You thought tongues were gross and would infect you with germs. Seriously dude, could you be more repressed?

50: The Woman With A Secret
You were incredibly spiteful to a group of young women that should not have threatened you in the least. Remember how your attitude changed when I fortuitously stumbled upon your dirty little secret?

49: The Girl With Freedom In Her Name
You sparkle young girl, bright and ferociously beautiful. You are audacious, rockstar, genius, smartass-y goodness. Neither of us belong here, but by fuck you do a great job of making it your own!

48: W
I read something you wrote once and loved you for it. I won’t forget the sense of wonder in the words you used to describe your first time. You were a lovely boy.

47: The Best Hairdresser I’ve Ever Had:
You give perfect cuts, but what really kept me coming back was the fact that you didn’t think that what I was about to do was completely and utterly insane. And the jumpsuits!

46: The Best Member of The Boyfriend’s Family
You are as much of a ‘misfit’ as I am. I completely understand what you are going through and I feel closer to you than you know. I heart you. You are amazing.

45: Confession To A High School Friend:
You were really upset when I moved interstate. You wrote to me but I never wrote back. I know that this hurt you and I am sorry. I still feel guilty about it.

44: The Primary School Crush:
Years later you called and confessed that you still thought about me often. I confessed that it took 15 years and another boy’s fetish to get over you teasing me about my ears.

43: The Uni Friend
Almost always the only two girls in the tute, we tag teamed all the fuckers who thought we were too white trash to be there. I will always be envious of your sarcasm.

42: A Colleague
I liked you from the moment you bounced into the induction 20 minutes late flashing the hugest shiteater grin. Confident and kind, you’re primary colors, a big smile and an even bigger heart.

41: The Great Grandmother
I look just like you, specially when I kohl my eyes. Your narrow mindedness ruined so many lives. Your colonialist pride broke her heart. I am nothing like you and never will be.

40: The Teacher
Set designer, prison officer, childcare worker, thespian - you name it you claim you’ve done it. The thing is though, that for all your knowledge and interesting stories, you’re really just a weirdo creep.

39: The Most Difficult Student
Helping you to pass your exam is one of my greatest personal achievements. The fact that I could convince you to trust me, and listen to me? Makes me proud of us both.

38: The ‘Human Bean’ Ex Boss
You’re shallow, insecure, exploitative, spiteful and completely useless at what you do. You only have the job because you married the boss. And everyone knows this. Is that why you’re such a bitch?

37:  The Hairdresser I Slept With
You rescued me from another hairdresser’s mutilation. I was so turned on by your kindness and your kisses were ‘oh my fucking god’ good. I won’t forget that you liked my “pixie” ears.

36: The Almost Sister
I loved you like a sister. We shared everything. Your betrayal broke my heart far worse than his. I could never be friends with you again. But sometimes, honestly, I still miss you.

35: The Littlest Pervert
Early primary school, you ask me to reach under the table and retrieve your eraser. Gullible, I’m met with your tiny wrinkly little penis and your posse’s derisive giggles. Unfunny then, unfunny now.

34: The Astronomer
Telescopes, supernovas and late night phone calls, I liked the way that you could tell me precisely when it was going to rain. Meeting you led me here. Imagine if we’d never met?

33: The Missing
Tall, handsome and popular, you left behind the sweetest little girl. I still have your unopened bottle of Ouzo. You were much too young to die. I wish I’d seen you once more.

32: The Primary School Tormentor
You asked your sister to beat me up because I’d dared to wear something purple. Purple was yours alone. I was scared, but much to your frustration, continued to wear those damn ribbons.

31: The Favourite Uncle
After school spaghetti with cheese, and dimsims. Names Day celebrations that lasted a whole weekend. Fat handle bar moustaches and a sense of family. I think of these when I think of you.

30: On X
You whispered your secrets to me and then asked me to paint your fingernails. Too much cleverness in too little a body. Cheeky, rude, opinionated and oh so confident. Stay ferocious little minx.

29: The Best Friend I Still Miss
I remember a spattering of freckles on the bridge of your nose, your twinkling blue eyes, and the sweetest, most genuine smile that was always ready to break free. I miss you still.

28: The Disappointer
Oh, how I loved you. I wanted you so. Oh, how I yearned for you, I wished for you so. Oh, the things you taught me. Those things I should never have learnt.

27: The High School Classics Teacher
You were the only progressive, feminist, teacher I ever had. I found out years later that you considered teaching us to be a ‘political statement’. Still not sure what I think of that.

26: The Radio Boy
When I think of you I think of pooh sticks, jimmie jams, Sid Vicious and pianos, combat boots and minties, a full moon and you and I on a narrow scout camp bed.

25: Another Lawyer
At 15, I must have been so far out of your usual law student experience. You were the first person to believe in me and encourage me professionally. I’ll never forget your support.

24: The Security Guard
You are one of the loveliest people that I have met while I’ve been here. Sweet, gentle, smart and unassuming with a wicked sense of humour, I really appreciate your awareness of me.

23: The Academic 2
You were so conceited. You told me that my lacking confidence didn’t mean my work wasn’t any good. I thanked you for the feedback — I knew what I was in for after that.

22: The Ex
I still don’t understand why you were the way you were. But I’ve finally, completely, resolutely, let you go. I don’t remember you very well anymore, and I am so grateful for that.

21: The High School Rebel
You secretly read Hamlet whilst smoking dope in your Metallica t-shirt. Danny to my Sandy, I took up smoking to impress you. I was such a sucker for the gorgeous contradiction of you.

20: The Boyfriend’s Father
You are big woollen jumpers, gentle interest, turtles and puppies and crazy cats. You are simplicity and coffee and friendships and ease. You are village life and home grown veggies and quiet dignity.

19: The First Engineer:
All sexy strut confidence, you sat next to me and possessively placed your hand on the small of my back. I don’t know why I didn’t go home with you, I’m still curious.

18: The First Would Be Husband:
You proposed to me with a homemade tin foil ring — just until you could get a job. I said yes and we held a pretty elaborate wedding during lunch recess the next week.

17: The High School ‘It’ Girl
So sure of your own fabulousness - all poodle curls and big teeth, almost as offensively insipid as the rest of your crowd. All you wanted to do was dance. Years later? Another cliche.

16: The Bitter Colleague
Insecure, spiteful, paranoid, entirely insincere - pretty much sums up the you I know. And just so you know, speaking solely in idioms doesn’t make you clever or cool, it’s actually kinda creepy. Alright.

15: The Friend of A Friend
Whether it be your crazy windmill dancing or your tendency to do blowfish impersonations on crowded restaurant windows, the thought of you still makes me smile. I hope you’re still perfectly the same.

14: The Neighbour
You took me by surprise when you told me about your anxiety, almost identical to my own. Your hugs are the warmest, safest, I’ve ever known. I love sharing a fence with you.

13: The Kind Almost Stranger
We shared classes but never spoke. You saw me crying when my grandmother died and silently passed me your notes. I didn’t even manage a thankyou. You didn’t know why I was crying.

12: The Polar Opposite
Opposites in just about every way possible, I went left, you went right. Becoming good friends shocked everyone around us. I guess we spotted the whitetrash inner we were both trying to hide.

Day 11: The Asshole Boss
The worst person I’ve ever worked for. Rude and mean, your entire business was based on exploiting both your clients and staff. Because I quit, you decided to sue me. Who does that?

10: The Lead Singer
All the women liked you, you liked me, I liked the guitarist, the guitarist liked his girlfriend. I didn’t notice until you kissed me on New Year’s Eve. After that night - which guitarist?

9: The First Kiss
The meanest boy in school and the first to kiss me with tongue. I didn’t know it then, but you were an amazing kisser. I wouldn’t have minded had you kissed me again.

8: The Sports Teacher
You mocked my clumsiness. Then, when I didn’t want to participate, you said I was too scared of making mistakes. I preferred getting hurt trying rather than risking your attention. I was 9.

7: The Carpet Seller
Istanbul. You gave me an old, beautiful wall-hanging and told me about your house. For furniture - just your rugs. Only color, light and texture. I found your idea of beauty sensuous, surprisingly erotic.

6: The Kick-Ass Lawyer
You’re the reason I became a lawyer. I thought you were empowered, that you made a difference to people’s lives. After I got to know you, I realised you’re just a mean bitch.

5: Dad
You died 20 years ago - you haven’t been gone a day. I saw something of your life recently and realised just how brave you were, what a good person. I’m lucky to have you.

4: My First Love
We bonded over losing people we loved and wanted to be archaeologists when we grew up. We danced all New Years Eve and I fell in love for the very first time.

3: The Actor
Your acting made me cry more than once. It was all in your ordinariness. That two strangers could share a meaningful exchange, moves me still. You liked my eloquence. You make a difference.

2: The High School Almost Friend
We had so much in common but were never really friends. It’s funny, how our lives still mirror one another’s. I loved the combination of your ferocious determination, sarcasm and big blonde curls.

1: The Academic
Your courage, intelligence and passion for what you do are humbling. I really valued our friendship, that’s why you disappointed me so much. I hope the struggle is easier on you now.